Saturday, January 31, 2015
Boy, I certainly am going to miss you... Hard to talk with others without getting my eyes wet or stopping in a middle of a phone call cause I'm trying to keep my composure from the emotions.... You believing in me, while others couldn't, has made me stand tall... When I think of all those memories we had, they were amazing and each one puts a smile on my face.... It was truly a privilege and an honor to be your son and your caretaker... However, I think by using the word "caretaker" makes it sound more like a job, rather than what I felt, which was a privilege, even on the tough days....
You were always ready and prepared for anything or everything and NEVER let us down.....I appreciate that so much... As a parent, I see how difficult that can be... I realize, I can not rely anymore on your wisdom that you gave me everyday until you passed...Nor the many pep talks you gave me...Your words and presence kept my spirits up when things weren't working out, like I thought they would... However, even though it probably took me too long to "get it"....You have given me the tools, I will need for this next chapter in my life....Thank you for your patience : )
You were so much fun... Whether talking about sports, politics or your favorite subject, your family... From your youngest great grandchild, Nicholas to the oldest grandchild, John.... Showing interest in everyone, all combined are at 16 (and counting!)... Not to mention your own children, Dan, Bit, Kathleen and myself... You had a wonderful sense of humor, while having so much class in everything you did...By others that have spoke or have written to me, who knew you, words on what they remember you by are; classy, great, wonderful, beautiful, amazing, privileged to have known her and loved her like my own mom are comments from people who are not even related to our family...
In many ways, I feel I have fallen short to the expectations I wanted you to see....Even though, you NEVER let me feel, I failed.... Hopefully, I can get better and achieve my goals and have you smile from above... Knowing you are always being thought of with much love.... Love you always, Jame
